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Here as I worship You
I long to be more honest
Long to be more free

I long to be more real
Long to be transparent
As you see my true intentions

Beyond this bended knee
Beyond the words I speak
Beyond the songs I sing
Hear My Worship

Godly sorrow brings repentence 
that leads to salvation
and leaves no regret,
but worldy sorrow brings death. 

2Corinthians 7:10

나의 욕심과 불안을 채우지 못해 애통해 함이 아니라
나의 죄로 인해 애통할 수 있길

나의 못난 마음과 행동을 억누르기보다
나의 온마음이 당신을 사랑하고
당신의 말씀을 사모하길

주님, 나의 소망이
당신이 원하는 그 길에 있길 바랍니다.
매일 말씀과 기도 중에 인도하여 주소서.
연약한 죄인 불쌍히 여겨주시고
성령으로 인도하여 주소서.

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Nevertheless, there will be no more gloom
for those who were in distress.
In the past he humbled the land of Zebulun and the land of Naphtali,
but in the future he will honor Galilee of the nations,
by the Way of the Sea, beyond the Jordan--

The people walking in darkness have seen a great light;
on those living in the land of deep darkness a light has dawned.

You have enlarged the nation and increased their joy;
they rejoice before you as people rejoice at the harvest,
as warriors rejoice when dividing the plunder.

For as in the day of Midian's defeat,
you have shattered the yoke that burdens them,
the bar across their shoulders,
the rod of their oppressor.

Every warrior's boot used in the battle
and every garment rolled in blood
will be desgined for burning, will be fuel for the fire.

For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called 
Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, 
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

Of the greatness of his government and peace
there will be no end.
He will reign on David's throne and over his kingdom,
establishing and upholding it
with justice and righteousness
from that time on and forever.
The zeal of the LORD will accomplish this.

Isaiah 9:1-7


God of Nevertheless
Wonderful
Counselor
Mighty God
Everlasting Father
Prince of Peace

당신의 이름이 내 마음 속에 새겨지길 원합니다.

Living in the moment

We're busy if we're lucky.
For some, the everyday is a process of going on until something happens, and then back to the going on.
For others, one wrong move is all it takes.
Worries swirl around the bodies in the dark.
People bottom out watching daytime television.
Schedules are thrown up like scaffolding to handle work schedules and soccer practice or a husband quietly drinking himself to death in the living room.
We dream of getting by, getting on track, getting away from it all, getting real, having an edge, beating the system, being ourselves, checking out.
But first we take the hit, or dodge it.

Ordinary Affects, Kathleen Stewart

Unsent emails

현명해져야 할 때-
하나하나
차근차근

내려놓음

나의 모습, 나의 소유, 주님 앞에 모두 드립니다.
모든 아픔, 모든 기쁨, 내 모든 눈물 받아 주소서.

나의 생명을 드리니 주 영광 위하여 사용하옵소서.
내가 사는 날 동안에 주를 찬양하며 기쁨의 제물 되리.
나를 받아 주소서.

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As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: "Be holy, because I am holy." (1Peter 1:15-16)

Now that you have purified yourselves by obeying the truth so that you have sincere love for each other, love one another deeply, from the heart. (1Peter 1:22)

항상 나의 얼굴이
주를 향하며

나의 이기적인 욕심이 아니라
당신의 사랑으로
내 주변에 허락하신 사람들을 바라보길

His good, pleasing, and perfect will

Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God--this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:1-2)

나의 욕심대로 감정대로 움직이지 않고,
나의 온마음을 하나님께 맡기는 것.
그러면 당신의 선하고, 기쁘고, 온전한 뜻을
나에게 들려주시리라.

나의 마음을 흔드는 모든 것들,
하나님 앞에서 온전히 내려놓고
기도드릴 수 있길.

안일해지지 않게 하시고
기도하게 하심에 감사.

섬김의 자리로
쉬지 않고 불러주심에 감사.

매일매일 나의 뜻을 꺾고
하나님의 뜻을 구할 때
더 큰 기쁨이 있음을..

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Father, thank you for walking with me for the past two months. Thank you for your faithfulness.

일상의 안일함을 경계하며,

어려움 중이나, 기쁨 중이나, 슬픔 중이나

당신의 신실하심, 은혜로우심을 기억하고 

항상 감사하며 찬양드리길.

매일 당신을 더 알고자 하는 마음이 더 커져가길.
당신이 내게 주시는 말씀과
우리의 교제를 가장 기뻐하는 내가 되길.

  

Faith

Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead—since he was about a hundred years old—and that Sarah's womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. This is why "it was credited to him as righteousness." The words "it was credited to him" were written not for him alone, but also for us, to whom God will credit righteousness—for us who believe in him who raised Jesus our Lord from the dead. He was delivered over to death for our sins and was raised to life for our justification. (‭Romans‬ ‭4‬:‭19-25‬ NIV)

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And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

2Corinthians 12:9-10

십자가

Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He's coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day

Glorious Day by Casting Crowns 

Trust

It's like the sun is shining
When the rain is pourin' down
It's like my soul is flying
Though my feet are on the ground
So take this heart of mine
There's no doubt
I'm in better hands now

I am strong
All because of you
I stand in awe of
Every mountain that you move
For I am changed
Yesterday is gone
I am safe
From this moment on...
And there's no fear when the night comes 'round
I'm in better hands now

In Better Hands by Natalie Grant

Conquering life

Now the gates of Jericho were securely barred because of the Israelites. No one went out and no one came in. Then the Lord said to Joshua, “See, I have delivered Jericho into your hands, along with its king and its fighting men. (Joshua 6:1-2)

Saving lives

     The struggle for the rights of children is not just a matter of feeling sorry for the people of this country or that; it is a common interrogation. There is plenty of complicity—and we are not exempt. Satyarthi also has an economic mission that challenges the West. What does it mean to set up a factory in a country where children don’t go to school, or to buy clothes without looking at the labels? For that matter, in the United States, what does it mean when children are pulled into the criminal-justice system and not treated as children at all? Whose children are all children?

     The Peace Prize has often been broadly understood; children’s rights fits well into its mandate of increasing understanding between nations. It’s not only an abstract matter, though. War takes children out of school, whether they are refugees, as in Syria, or targets of attack, like the Nigerian girls kidnapped by Boko Haram. Children who have no other options are also likelier recruits for war. The economic exploitation of children is also raw abuse, backed up by coercion and often violence. School is a rebuke to war; so is caring about the futures of other people’s children.

A fitting Nobel for Malala Yousafzai and Kailash Satyarthi 

by Amy Davidson

Things we take for granted in life may be a desperate hope far yet to be reached for someone. Lord, help me to have Jesus' true compassion and love and earnestly pray for those who are in the midst of distress and suffering.

Praise the Lord who hears my prayer

 

나의 작은 기도 하나 하나까지 땅에 떨어뜨리지 않으시고, 내가 모르는 중에도 이루어가시는 faithful한 나의 하나님! 

Father, I thank you for answering my prayer. Now I realize that all my worries, suffering, and wandering have been your answer for my prayer--the sign of your mercy and faithfulness.

Blessed are those whose strengh is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage (Psalms 84:5)

I pray that I will offer my best and give all the glory to you, Lord. I am very weak and sinful--please give me your strength and wisdom, so I can overcome all the wordly temptations and fix my eyes on Jesus. 

오호라 봐야징

If that question sounds familiar, that’s because, in some ways, with “Gone Girl,” Fincher has returned to the structures of “Fight Club,” substituting a married couple for Tyler Durden and his gaggle of disenchanted bros. In both stories, the characters rebel against the unbearable myth of attainable perfection, substituting for it an alternative one of transcendent, authentic, freedom-giving destruction. “Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need,” Tyler Durden says. “We’ve all been raised on television to believe that one day we’d all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars, but we won’t.” Durden’s response to his disillusionment with contemporary masculinity is to embrace a seductive, violent, and supposedly more genuine idea of “real” manliness—but that alternative turns out to be a disastrous illusion. In “Gone Girl,” it’s the mythos of coupledom, not the mythos of masculinity, that’s oppressive. But the imagined solution is the same: “We’re so cute I want to punch us in the face,” Amy says.

What "Gone Girl" is really about by Joshua Rothman

항상 감사하기

Daily bread

 

매일 struggle하지만

매일 말씀이 들리게 하시고

주안에서 사명을 고민하게 하심에 감사

이제 백퍼센트 그 말씀을 믿고

백퍼센트 순종하며 나아가길 

믿음이 부족한 자를 

불쌍히 여기시고

매일 당신의 형상으로

빚어가소서

Train ride

철컥철컥
기차 소리만

Stronger

Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

Stronger by Mandisa

One thing remains

Your love never fails 

It never gives up 

It never runs out on me

 

Your love never fails 

It never gives up 

It never runs out on me

 

Your love never fails 

It never gives up 

It never runs out on me

 

One thing remains by Jesus Culture

선물

우리 가족을 불러주시고
고난의 때에 하나로 이어주신
하나님께 감사.

하나님, 
그동안 진심으로 감사 드리지 않았음을 
회개합니다.

너무나 자연스레 받아들였던 은혜가
이렇게 큰 선물인지 이제야 깨닫습니다.

앞으로 내가 누리는 어떤 것도 당연히 여기지 않고
하나님께 감사와 영광 드리길 기도합니다.

앞으로도 영육간에 엄마 아빠 모두 지켜주시고,
60을 바라보는 연세지만 
하나님 안에 여전히 비전과 희망을 가질 수 있도록
기도합니다. 

저는 이곳에 있지만 
하나님께서 부모님과 항상 함께 하심을 믿습니다.

진심으로 감사 드립니다.

매일 매일 되새기기

Blessed is the one
   who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
   or sit in the seat of the mockers.
But his delight is in the law of the LORD
    and on his law he meditates day and night.
He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
   which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither.
   Whatever he does prospers.

Psalms 1:1-4

Goooood morning at Green Line Locust

Calling

내가 가야할 곳을 알고 다른 일에 지체하거나 마음 두지 않는 것.

일상--놓치기 쉬운 것들

This past summer, Erik Nelson, a documentary filmmaker, was trying to finish cutting a film called “9/10: The Final Hours,” for the National Geographic Channel. He’d dug up all kinds of footage shot the day before the September 11th terrorist attacks, but very little of what the buildings had looked like inside. Amid a desperation for interiors, there was talk of abandoning the project. Then one of Nelson’s film researchers came across a trove of Petrov’s pictures, on an Estonian photo-sharing site called Fotki.

Nelson felt as though he had stumbled on the tomb of King Tut. For whatever reason, this Petrov had turned an archivist’s eye on the banalities of an office building and a sky-top restaurant, which, though destroyed in one of history’s most photographed events, had hardly been photographed at all.

. . .

“It’s a big lesson to all of us,” Don said. “Take picture now of what we have.”

Take Picture by Nick Paumgarten

Insecurities

Every morning when I wake up, there is one blissful second before I look around the room and remember my many terrors. I wonder if this is what it will always be like, forever, and I try to remember moments I felt safe: In bed next to my mother one Sunday morning. Playing with my friend Isabel’s puppy. Getting picked up from a sleepover just before bedtime.

Difficult girl by Lena Dunham

140808 꿈

Strange yet beautiful--beach on fire

우리집

     cats,
     a whale,
     the moon,
     birds,
     a ladder,
     the city,
     and monsters